Waiting for you to come
it’s been 9 months
but in this moment
it feels longer than a lifetime
like many of them
all bunched up
a slinky in a box
waiting to expand
and when you do
it will be like
another universe
unfolding
tiny and large
all at the same time
like the spindle that
ran ceaselessly in my head
at 6 years old
forcing me to
sleep with my mother
making her worry
if her child was alright
or if anyone would ever
sleep soundly
again–
Category Archives: Love
Birds
The birds were flying everywhere
They came to me in
An email
“Come
Flock to bbg
And see what we have to offer your
Chickadees”
So we showered
And dressed
And drove to
Hear a story badly told
Our roost
Moving quickly to the nest building table
Two brown eggs were made
Symbolizing the dove’s creative and feminine energies
And arriving back home
There were two pruning
Sitting on my fire escape
Red bellies
I took a few pics and sent them to my dad
He said very surely they are
Doves
My totem
For femininity
Birth
Prophecy
A day of
Messages to let us know
We’re right where we belong
And
You are right here with us
The freedom
To be ourselves
And keep going
Women’s Circle
Standing in a women’s circle
in June of 2012
I stood across from you
knowing that you would be my mentor
on the beginning of this new
and long journey
You gifted me a soft pink, white and
wine colored pashmina scarf
The ones they sell on tables
in the city
on cold corners
to passersby who decide to stop and peruse
You told me as you handed it to me
it was gifted to you
when you were pregnant
by a woman
who had recently given birth
and little did I know then
and for years to come
how this would be the beginning of a
very long cycle
of birthing and rebirthing
both physically, emotionally
and spiritually
for me
and for us
My little Victoria is here
and now comes another
Sweet angel
who picked me
who was handed down to me
by the divine
to watch over and guide
my internal
Mother Earth
Creating
Healing
Gifting
all
the
time–
New
Standing at the
Precipice
of eternity
Once again
I catch a glimpse into
Your big tiny heart
Wondering what
collective name we will give
You
What heaven you will come from
What star will you
Tell the story of
What footprint
Will you leave
When your page
Is written
When your work
is finally done?
Bake
Picturing you
A dream
Awake
The kind of child
I will always love
The kind of womb
That takes its time
The kind of creation
That crinkles in the eyes
A love supreme
A masterpiece
Divine–
The Queen
You stand up there
tall and proud
black and proud
with your nude lace up heels,
cheetah print maxi skirt
with a slit up the side
thick leather belt that
wraps around your black
skin tight leotard
covered by a light beige duster
with big tufts of fur on the collar–
I admire your look
and I admire you even more
after you tell the large crowd you are
68–
and then I admire you even more
as you begin to tell us about your life
how you left for four years
and came back just today
how people had run you out
when they were supposed to have
had your back
were supposed to have supported you
in your darkest, loneliest
most confusing moments
and instead, when you did not fit their
image of the “queen”
(which is what they called you
and you begged to differ)
they pretended you did not exist
and so you asked
(I ask)
what is this then
the program we call
a God-given program?
if we can’t see ourselves in each other
if we can’t remember that we are
all the same
that we all come from the same place
no matter our sexual identity, creed, religion
or lack of religion
and with that crack of your voice
the quavering of your chin
seducing one tear or more tears
out of my eyes
telling us all of your pain and suffering
I heard my story too
and his and her story
and probably everybody’s story
and I thought, well dammit
you are still the Queen
even if you are not in your eyes
but mine
and even if you weren’t or aren’t
the woman we should be bowing to
I still respect you for
being you
and sharing with me all of you
which makes me
a better person–
Missing Poems
Forgot to write a poem today
the buzzing in my veins
forbids me from sitting down
getting grounded
or letting go
So please Creator
see this feeble attempt
at expression a reminder
of my unwavering dedication to you
and that all I should do
be in reverence to you
the divine force
the heartbeat
the baby in the mother’s womb–
I choose love
wandering the streets of NYC
I have a plan
to not have a plan
I slowly float over tiny brown puddles
waiting for you to get out of my way
sorry that was mean
I mean, I’m letting you pass first
stuck in between a black wrought iron fence
and a tiny yellow dandelion
I choose love
Yes,
I choose love–
Beach Ball
Listening to you
repeat every word I say
like it’s all new
it is new
it’s so
so
so very new to you
you pick up a piece and say red
it’s yellow
you pick up another piece
it’s yellow
you say yellow
the claymation on the screen
as I type this
says
“koo koo”
it’s Russian for
peek a boo
I didn’t understand why
until I heard you repeat it
(so much easier for babies)
and here we are
day after day
week after week
month after month
nearing the 2 year mark
and you are everything I hoped for
everything I dreamed of
more than I could have imagined
as we awaken another morning
rest unto another night
looking forward with glistening eyes
thanking the Lord
for another day here
to live in peace
and as much harmony
as my small mind
commands
as I will allow myself to feel
on this little
round
blue ball
called
Earth–
Speaking your purple and pink language
Speaking your purple and pink language
The words roll off your tongue like bubbles
Popping to the sound of your own melody
Matching the bazooka Joe music of the radio
Sound waves
Collapsing
Into me
Into you
As you stroll the Invisble
Baby
Across the room
We are waiting for you
To arrive
One year
In the future
Will you come?
We wonder–