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Monthly Archives: May 2013
Wednesday Dinner in Curry Hill
There’s something about the way
we sat
at the table
in the Indian restaurant
that made me feel like it’s only
me
and
you
in
the
whole
entire
gigantic
and
immeasurably
infinite
ever expanding
and
ultimately
dying
universe.
We finished our meal
and I turned my torso slightly to the left–
I was then able to rest my left shoulder and some of my back on the wall next to me.
Facing out towards Lexington avenue
allowed me to navigate my gaze intermittently between you
and our conversation
and the fashionable
passersby–
my casual view of the citizens of New York
was restricted by the
“A” grade sign
and the 2007 Times article
and the overlapping menu
of mostly South, but some North
Indian Cuisine.
Our chai came
and my tongue was already too burnt to sip anymore,
but I sipped anyway
until I was almost done
and then
we
paid our bill
and
went
Home.
Me and the Little Sis
Under the Full Moon
Aged and silent cavity
how I long to be pulled from your extremity
skeletal demise
becomes unity
dancing on the grave
of
captivity.
What has weathered the cost to sit by your glass feet?
A long, gray coat disappears
under the full moon
and I wish
to be in your womb
once again.
South Beach
Everything Would Be All Right
I stood in the hospital room
staring at my father
hold my sister’s son—
my nephew—
and a silent wave washed over me
the one Whitman talks about
in which we realize we’re
all connected over time through
life’s great events we share.
the collective unconscious
suddenly came to the forefront
and in a fragmented yet fiery flash
I saw myself and my
mother at a young age
doing the things that
young daughters and mothers
do—
and then fast forward to
me becoming you
and you becoming them—
In this sudden moment the distance became so close
That everything—
everything—
heart-achingly
was so, so beautiful and I knew then
that everything would be all right.
Underground
Not Really Hungry
I took the ancient medicine
on a full stomach
and I immediately became ill.
My stomach rumbled with nausea
and my head split in two–
a headache.
I decided to rest my head on  your shoulder
instantly feeling the psychic connectionÂ
we always had.
You said, “Close your eyes”
I did
and disappeared for a while in the
universal abyss
but the drum beat was too
fast
and the geometric shapes in my mind
shifted too quickly–
so I had to leave
I had to open my eyes
to remain grounded
at least in THIS reality.
I could hear Casique
say
“… and some purge…”
Up to the bathroom I went–
And so familarÂ
2 fingers at the backÂ
of the throat
and thought–
It has been so long
since I’ve been here
facing the toilet seat and
yet
the perspective has changed.
I’m not sickÂ
from alcohol or drugs
but purging
healing
Removing
what needs
removing.
And the medicine taught me
this lesson
that I have changed
that I needed to take her
to see how much I’ve grown–
And to not eat a piece of broccoli just because it’s there…
when I’m really
not
hungry.
The Universal Classroom
Dandelion butterflies
glisten in the afternoon sunlight.
A vision in my mind
reminds me of the field scene in 1984.
A dark, secret place
separate from civilization
where shadows meet
torsos lay
heads disappear
and tall green grass protects.
I can’t see your face
or your face
and he wants it that way.
Red and white checkered shirts
shift
And denim jeans remain
untouched
in a snapshot of literary genius.
In the universal classroom
I see minds grasping
but only a few
will find
true
meaning.
Up Their Lazy Ass
Writing poetry should not be a chore
but I find myself
waiting until the last second
to get my thoughts down on paper.
I wait
until I see you
posting
photograph
after
black and white
photograph
And exclaim–
“I have 100 likes”–
while I barely
cracked the 50 mark
even with a 3 year old blog
And
don’t get me wrong–
this isn’t jealousy or envy
or insecurity
But a nail in
the collective
word coffin.
No one likes
a halfway
decent poem
and many would rather
continue to click
the visual stick
up their
lazy, wordless
ass.